"forgive but never forget."

i like the way this sentence clicks together.
and i didnt know that you would be the next one.

time to destroy.

*edited*

ichigoes!
maybe some of you might know about this, mayb some of you might not.
but i just wanna confirm it here.

as of now, im officially.................bored. hahahaha.
okay la! tats not what i wanna say la actually. sorry la ehk. haha.
alright, this is the actual thing i wanna say.

since some cant make it for chalet this end of sem, our beloved Sharon and Soo planned a BBQ for us. haha. thanks to the both of you! ((: it will be conducted somewhere in October and the plans for the food, The Usuals will meet up and discuss about the food somewhere in the ending of September. okay everyone? wan anything special again? stingray, otak2, satay and etc? plz tell us. this will mean that more money will have to be forked out. can? i dun mind if you all dun mind. (: so far i can see that majority can make it, which means this is gonna be a BANG! SINCE ALL CAN COME! ITS SURE GONNA BE ONE HELL OF A GATHERING! haha!

more details will either be posted here or Sharon's blog. take care everyone!
love you! (:

its 6am now and i just got back after a long outing since the afternoon.

lets make it short and sweet. *sweet kepe?!*

met up with ramlan and hamli, planned for sheesha but ended up goin for a karaoke session. halfway, hamli's fren came by and join in the fun. get to know some of them at cineleisure after our karaoke session. and they were shocked that im the brother of Wani and Shafa. hahaha. after walking around at cineleisure, i went off to meet up with harry, daun, ash and khai. a short meet up session at woodlands point. then off to ash's neighbourhood to have another lepak session. haha.

*i realise i've been lepak-ing alot this past few weekends. and im loving it!*

kinda talked alot with ash. from something serious to something hilarious. chat, sing and make a fool of ourselves til abt 4+am where harry comes back from his soccer session. he joined us for a moment before sending me back home. Thanks Harry for the ride! (:

take care everyone! and i really mean everyone! (:

mangkuk!

things are settling down and im happy that im much more calmer now. thanks to all! especially to those i have been meeting up ever since the 15th. (:

things gonna get pretty good from now on! haha. ((:

someone was walking damn fast after her class ends at 2.32pm, EXACTLY!, just now. haha! tat someone is called Syahira. haha! wanna know why? coz she is so damn excited about meeting her one and only. haha! it took her only 18 mins to get from Blk P level 4 to Khatib. and i really mean Khatib!! haha. im wondering how was she walking at such a fast rate. haha. damn funny la tat gerl.

lets talk abt monday.

i was sick, so i went to the doc and the doc kinda gave me 3 days mc. haha! since i was bored at home and syahira needed some help, i decided to go to NYP to help her and meet up with ash at the same time. haha. after that, we part ways at the mrt station. me and ash went to bugis to meet up with aiman and naqib. haha. after bugis, was yishun. then met up with khai and his cousin. we went jamming! haha! hancur but fun! lol.

now lets talk abt tuesday.

went to school again since i was bored! decided to meet up with ash. but since syahira was bored at school, decided to meet her first. she had to rush to class and i went off to meet ash. had lunch at sch and it feels as though its been a long time since i last ate there. padahal baru 2 bulan lebih sey. haha.

just something i feel like typing out.

in life, there are choices that have to be made. it could be a life changing choice so you must be careful with what you have chose. it doesn't have to be good all the time because good choices usually have bad endings. everyone is sure to have chosen a wrong choice somewhere in their life, it could be anything that is considered bad to themselves, to making themselves happy. but no matter what choice you've made, make sure that it is what you really really want. follow the heart and put some thinking to it too. your choice will be a wise one. (:

now its a weekly routine, beb! hehe.

meet up with 3 of the 4 jokers weekly at friday or saturday nite.

chilling beb! haha.

4more weeks and some of you will know whats gonna happen.

then 2 months later after that, execute certain procedures!

plans, planning, planned!

from outings, to evil plans! wakakakaka!

you are so evil, Hafiz! haha!

macam pah!

trim and coloured the hair at a recommended place at woodlands mart.

lepak-ed with ary, ash, kev, von, daun and ary's fren(name dier ape ah ary?).

driving session with ary and gang. cool people i tell you!

went to places i nvr went before past midnite.

chilled again at woodlands area.

den home sweet home!

gerimis mengundang.

eh! dah hujan lebat pon!

haha. (:

semoga kau ditempatkan dengan orang-orang yang beriman, Solihin.
gonna miss you. may you rest in peace.

ps. im gonna keep the promise i made to you, captain!

*editted*

*those in blue are malay to english translation*

*requested by angeline*

this is gonna be kekek-ness! haha.

my story.

just got back from a walk which i happen to meet up with ash at khatib mrt. this is our conversation.

i said, "ash! ape kau buat kat sini? da pukul 12.20am sia! kau da giler kepe?! haha."

(ash! what you doing here? its 12.20am sia! u crazy already izit? haha.)

ash said, "aku gi jumpe gerl ah. hehe. dier de problem cket bro! anyway, kau da makan?"

(i went to meet gerl ah. hehe. got some problems, bro! anyway, u eaten already?)

i said, "jumpe gerl or wad! haha. ape problem? anyway, aku blom makan."

(meet gerl or wad! haha. wad problem? anyway, i have not eaten.)

ash said, "lepak pat mac kepe? aku ajak tu gerl skali. mau pe? hehe."

(chill at mac? i bring along gerl. want anot? hehe.)

i said, "bleh. the nite is still young ah bro! nnt aku calling member aku jgk. aku de story."

(can. the nite is still young ah bro! later i call down my fren too. i got some story.)

so we went to Northpoint's McDonalds to eat. ash's fren came by and i brought my fren along. time we reached Northpoint: 1am. Number of people: 4. and the conversation started off serious by ash's fren then started to giggle over my fren's joke.

*conversation kept confidential*

by the time we ended talking, it was already 2.14am. ash's fren, Rosnadia, had to leave already. and for my fren, Lina, she gave each of us a hug and went off with Rosnadia. since Rosnadia and Lina lives nearby, blk 297 and blk 130, me and ash decided to send them home via cab. after sending off Lina to her house, me and ash decided to stay outside for a moment to have a talk about something. *wonder what's that something? ask me or ash. haha.*

we walked and walked and we reached blk 165. ash find this blk number very familiar and i have that feeling too. *blk sape ah?! (whose blk ah?!)* okay nvm. drop it. we lepak there til 4.30am and decided to go to my house.

*hot news*

otw home, near block 612 (nearby my house), we saw these 3 chicks near the roadside. we thought they were bapok! serious shit! sumpah setia! but we gave a closer look as they were looking at us. hehe. so we walked pass them and a conversation started.

*those in grey are some malay lingo kinda joke. it sounds weird in english*

ash randomly said, "lydia!"

(lydia!)

one of them said, "huh? do i know you?"

me and ash started laughing.

ash said, "you look familiar. tats y i randomly say the name."

the same gerl said, "ohh. tats my name. u got that right."

ash said, "ohh really? hehe. alright. so wad are you doing here at this hour?"

i said, "da mula la tu! oi ashrap! nak gi rumah aku ke nk jual minyak?"

(there you go again. oi ashrap! want to go to my house or sell oil?)

ash replied, "minyak ape?"

(what kinda oil?)

i replied, "minyak urat!"

(veins oil!)

then the three gerls and ash started laughing.

lydia said, "u due tk balek ke? da kul 5 tau!"

(the both of you not going home yet? its 5 already you know!)

ash and i said, "alahh. skali skale lepak mlm gini okay pe."

(alahh. once in a while okay wad.)

rini (lydia's fren) said, "wahh! abg-abg kite lepak mlm sey! hehe."

(wahh! these big brothers chill at nite sey! hehe.)

ash said, "standard. single-mingle ma. tkde org nk amek kesah. anyway, ade tagged?"

(standard. we are single ma. no one cares. anyway, you got tagged?)

lydia said, "ade. *she gave her email to ash.* this is my email add. dun forget to give me love k?"

ash said, "insya'allah."

(if allah forbids.)

i said, "alhamdulillah. member aku dpt email chicks sey!"

(praise allah! my fren got chicks's number sey!)

then the cab came and they had to rush off to geylang. that's what they said when they took the cab. HAHAHAHA!

i said, "ALAMAK! LAIN MACAM JE!!"

(ALAMAK! This feels strange.)

ash said, "CANCEL ORDER BRO!"

both started laughing. then it was home sweet home.

*this is an inside joke we had. and the night was funny eventhough it was unexpected for us to meet up. haha! wanna know the full story? hmmmmm. TOO BAD! oni authorised people can know about it. hahaha! anyway, ash is laughing his ass off while we wrote this together. haha!*

nites people! or shall i say, GOOD MORNING! hahaha. bye.

i know.

*warning! warning!*

*this post might be too long to handle*

*parental guidance is advised*

MACAM PAHAM!!

loads happened. lets break it down aite? here we go.

lets start from last friday.

was suppose to go club for a stress-relieving session. haha! but it got cancelled due to some unforeseen circumstances. its okay! met up with kevin, harry and ash at ash dad's stall at marsiling. and i cycled there! haha! some exercise la! train the legs. lol! once we meet, we ate there and we went off to old woodlands center once we are done to meet up with khairul. and we ate again! haha.

then we are off to some paranormal investigation but it wasnt successful. didnt see anything there. we kinda went to marsiling park which we have to climb up the stairs. joked around at the top and listened to Misteri Jam 12 til it ends. haha. after laughing our ass off there, ash and khai went home while i went to harry's crib at admiralty to chill. played winning eleven and tekken 5. it was fun i tell you! and funny too. long story. haha. after that was a mini jamming session. haha! i played the semi-acoustic guitar while harry played his electric guitar. played til its time to leave. it was already 7.30am.

on monday, kinda had a dinner session with siling, jaryl, berd, saiful, ramlan and jamal. this is the band gang member. haha! as we are from the symphonic band in our sec sch! haha. the dinner was planned as siling is goin off to London for her exchange programme with another Uni there i think? haha.

SILING! make sure you buy me the BAPE hoodie from there as promised! hehe! ;p

i also realise that the one tat came was the people from the same batch. there was the ex-Band Major(Jaryl), ex-Drum major(Saiful), ex-assistant Drum Major(Beth), ex-Drum Sergeant Major(Jamal), ex-PTI(ME!) and ex-Quartermaster(Ramlan). all got post one okay! haha! had dinner at Bali Thai, ice-cream at Udders and lepak session at AMK Fountain! old times! haha. we kinda got home very late. we left the area at 12.15am. HAHA!

i think that these are the 2 major events happened. hmm. i think it is. tats all yaw! pics will be post soon for the dinner session! (: take care!

truth hurts, but its better than being left in the dark. true?

then u better tell me the truth. im still lost you know?

i just realise that all these while, i was so blinded. i was.

but once i have come to my senses, i realise that whatever you said is not a good

reason to start with.

i feel as though its a lost cause. its all a waste. i really feel it that way.

"it doesn't matter what it does, what you're gonna do about it matters most"
coz the outcome is what people are afraid of.
true? false? maybe? you decide.


i found some old photos and i will be posting it here soon. kinda found it after checking thru old emails in my inbox. haha! (:



ichigoes, when is the next gathering/outing? i want an gathering/outing again! (:
anywhere would do. (:
and one more thing, chalet/bbq plans! lets do it once more. (:

alot has happened from all the way from 2 weeks ago til today.

good, bad, happy, sad, smiles, anger, disappointments, excited, all-out and lots more la!

macam-macam la.

i realise tat last week, im always back home after 11.30pm minimum.

been out meeting with frens from last monday til sunday.

lets break it down aite?

monday

met up with irah accidentally wen i was otw back home and both of us asked the same question.

tat is "where you goin off to now?". so we decided to sit and chill for a moment and talk.

kinda talk alot til tat we didnt realise tat it was already 10pm!

talk, talk, talk, talk and talk. but the very thing i cant take it was tat I ACTUALLY HAD TO ACCOMPANY DO HER PEDICURE! hahahahahah!

tuesday & wednesday

decided to go to meet ash at his father's stall at marsiling.

lepak-ed there, talked and freaking smoke all the way til i got home. haha!

and let me say something here, ASHRAF CAN COOK KINDA WELL! haha.

not bad eh ash. keep it up ah! and stop disturbing gerls wen you see one! especially minah2! hahaha! kekek ah lu brudder! (:

thursday

all hell breaks lose. i just had to lose it. met up with kevin at Science park there and chilled at the starbucks there while waiting for Yvonne to end as she was working. and the manager there is freaking fun sia!! if oni im working there, sure kekek!!

then i realise that on tat faithful day, i bought my pack of ciggs in the afternoon and its finished by 11.30pm! alot happened on this day, and i dun wish to talk about it.

friday

LEPAK DAY with Kevin, Ash and Harry. Thought of asking Chris but it seems that we cant contact him on the day before. i kinda met up with kevin first at City Hall mrt as he wants to get something for his darling. HAHA! after getting the things he wants, we went straight to Marsiling MRT to meet up with Harry and then we went off to ash's dad's stall. lepak-ed there til 11pm and went to ash's blk to have a longer lepak time. haha!

ash brought guitars and we kinda jammed til abt 2-3am before ash had to go home and, me and harry went to his house(harry's). Daun was there too, after we reached at his house. Played Winning Eleven with them til i dozed off. Hahaha! sleepy da! its been a long time since i last stayed up! went off at 8.30am and it was home sweet home.

saturday

i lepak-ed at home! (:

sunday

met up with Ramlan Raz and Hamli Wawan! hahha! there's a reason for tat name . LOL!

after such a long time, finally we meet. the last time we 3 met up was like 3months ago? tats freaking long la. the last meeting oso for a karaoke and lepak-ed session.

we kinda chilled at Ham's place til 11pm where we talked with his mum from all kind of issues. haha. he is the first fren's mum, that i can call her "Mum" and the second one would be Apul's mum. (:

will be posting more on the next entry.

i wanna slp first! nites all.

promises are meant to be kept, but once its broken, anything could happen.

words are just words, i assume?

back to blogging.

didnt really change the blogskin that much. only some change of it though.

just some minor changes. and i changed the pics too located at the top. (:

take care all. (:

stay tuned.

tried going out and just let loose,

but its still the same.

it just went down my cheeks.

after a long time, i just cant control it anymore and i just cried, i did.

i have 3 questions for you that i hope you will answer truthfully.





its not easy for me.
smoke my way to sleep.

The Thoughts

had a dream.

saw a bright light, and the next thing i knew i was involved in an accident.

things got bad. i see people around me. those that i know and those that i dont.

people there gave the support for me to hold on.

and the next thing, i woke up and felt as though it was real.

what a dream!

cant sleep so i spent the time playing the guitar to calm myself down abit.

learnt about 3 songs. proud of it. haha!

i cant sleep tonight. tried sleeping but i felt as though something had to be done.

thought of it thoroughly and decided to go for another one. and im ready now.

decided and certainly hopes for the best.

80% chance of survival.

outing with Yeeju, SiewChee and Aaron last Sunday. The only pics we took.

and i look horrible.