"let me see....."

lets just say, i wanna focus on one thing at a time. and i think i wanna get this thing, that i have been thinking about, settled first. its not really bothering me but its been there with me for quite sometime already and i sincerely think that there must be an end to this.

lets keep all the things i wanna say to this simple phrase..

'should i stay? or should i go?'

"over, but the fear is there"

projects are all being handed over to the authority of the course. what i can do now is just wait for the unveiling of the long awaited final result. there's a mixture of feelings for it. its like 98% excited & 2% scared, or maybe it is 98% scared & 2% excited. that's what makes it so intense.

however, there is a worry of me repeating one of the module. i just hope that i wont be repeating any modules so i can leave NYP with straight ace, which is no failures. insyaallah. hehe.

"working at Sentosa"

it was all fun and laughters on the first day of work on last Saturday. had to partner with someone who happens to be someone fun too. haha. the only tiring thing is we had to stand for the whole almost-9-hours of working. but time past fast with the people im working with. i like~ :D

so far so good. hopefully it stays this way. (:

"Something on Facebook"

Kinda did a quiz thingy on Facebook and I find it fascinating. So I decided to post it up here for you guys & girls to take a look at my answer. (:

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Dear Hafiz O'Conner, below are your Personality Tests result:

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are intelligent
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Honest
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Sweet
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are friendly to everybody
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't like conflict
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Because you're so cheerful
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Fun people are naturally attracted to you
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Like to talk to you

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are a true romantic
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : When you are in love
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will do anything
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Everything to keep your love true

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person

The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are very serious about relationships
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : If you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will fall deeply
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Beautifully in love

Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is less important than the real world out there
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Away from the classroom
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Deep inside you want to start working
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Earning money
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Living on your own

The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You'll be set for life

How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous

What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Independence is important to you

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"Why Didn't I?!"

there are certain things that i know that i should do yet i didn't. there are things which should be done to make things better yet i didn't do a thing. come on, ref!

maybe i'm not brave enough?

maybe i'm too shy?

i dunno. but if i'm too shy, i don't think so. as i'm not the shy kinda person. i'm kinda loud. and that's what my friend would say if whoever had asked them. i'm never too shy to do crazy things but i don't know that when it comes to this kinda things, i'm perplexed. it makes me estranged from my usual self.

*what in the blue hell is wrong with you, Bear?!*

glad that you came. (:

"adrenaline rush"

there was a short adrenaline rush on last Friday. had to do 2 project assessments and submission. and one of them wasn't even started yet. :|

but it was all good when all was done on that day itself. there was a rush on things but i guess i was lucky to get it all done on that day. thanks to irah for helping me on my MAD project and kevin for assisting me in the assessment of the Web 2.0 project. :D

glad that all is done except for Open-Source and then im all done!

"what a weekend!"

had one hell of a weekend! it all started on Saturday. had a soccer match at Woodlands Sec and the anxiety was there for me to play on the field once more. especially after the injury. i missed having a soccer match on the a field pitch and this certainly makes my day.

started off as a right-back but i sucked! but i made it up by agreeing to play as a goalie at second-half. hehe. kinda proud with what i had achieved by playing as a goalie tat day. hehe! those who are there would know. xD

then comes sunday. supposedly i had to meet up with soo and some others for bee's surprise party. but i had something on before that which i had to attend to. after some work with dad, went to meet khai for a karaoke session. hehe.

FINALLY WE MET UP FOR A KARAOKE SESSION! hahaha.

sang, joke, more singing and even more joking around. haha! its no fun if we were to sing seriously. hehe.

"yesterday~"

went for a job interview with Khai, set-up by Rya. the job is at Sentosa under Admin Ops. (: kinda cant wait to work there once i've got hired by them. hopefully they will call me soon!! then i can earn some solid bucks. its time to not ask for money anymore from parents. furthermore im already 21. malu u~! haha.

after the interview, slacked with them with Ash, Airina, Kok Yong and Dara. went to eat Marvelous Cream! hehe. sedap~! then we went for a short walk at esplanade and then off to Starbucks at City Link.

it was home sweet home after that. (:

*to be posted on the next entry*

here is a preview for my next post.. its about yesterday night cycling session to Sembawang Park. something happened............ stay tuned!

"chances"

chances in life for things we want are always there. only the opportunity for achieving it is often missing. but actually, the initial entry i want to post up is regarding people giving chances to another party yet the other party misused that chances given.

for example, there's someone i know. that person is a friend but we dont really talk. that person was given chances umpteen times to change for the better but still, no change or effort was done. ever since i got to know this particular person, my perspective of that person has gone from good to bad to worst to beyond-help. that is what i think. not that im bitching about this person but i have my reasons to say up this facts. its been too much and i cant really take it.

and to top it of, this particular son of a pistol has wronged me. not once, but twice. so if one more time he wronged me with wrong accusations, actions will be done and consequences will be imposed.

even nice people have their limits.


"the last few meters"

i have said it before and im gonna say it again....
last 2 weeks, last few moments and last few projects. get this done and im free. but i hope to get a job soon though. so i wont be wasting my time laying around at home or go out spending my money that i dont have.

anyone got any job vacancies?
i know a few though but im keeping my options open til the time is right. hehe. (:




i feel good whenever your "presence" are here. (: